AyinBase with R' Paltiel Monday 28 Tevet 5772
Page 68 – about a third from the top of the page (line starts, 've-atzmus...')
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The hidden Torah is Torah in its pristine state. There are hidden aspects that are only for Him and cannot be valued by man. Only G-d understands its. This is where Torah is one with Him and by knowing Himself he knows Torah.
Chochmah of Torah is the wisdom of Torah as it is included within Him. But chochmah is something that can come down and be known by us in this lower world. But from above it is 'knowing Himself'.
This is like sight – you observe something and it is real, but you don't see it unless you look – it is still external to you. Chochmah as it is in His essence is paradoxical. It is not sight that could not be seen. It is seen within the source itself. So if it is Him Himself, why is chochmah there?
This is the purist level, that cannot be not seen, and this is the real source of Torah.
One may think this is made for export. It is made for internal consumption. This inner knowledge is for Him.
Torah is not for His expression and revelation. Torah contains His inner story – ratzon/will and oneg/pleasure.
In essence there is no 'before and after' – knowledge is not acquired – truth exists. There is a primary reality. Reality is not coming into being. In our world 'real' means something made. In the real reality it is different. In our own experience, we can relate to the concept real reality. You build a house, but the space was always there, but still it can be measured. So in our little perception, space is the foundation of presence... it is a metaphor for fundamental reality...