Forget about remembering

AiynBase with R' Paltiel 1/29/10 Friday 14 Shevat 5770

Page 11 - 9 lines from top of the page - “kati malka”.


Serving with excitement is not real bitul – he's outside. The level beyond that is quiet – bitul be metziut.


We're saying two things – complete bitul and an inaudible sound. Why is there a sound altogether if there is complete unity? The answer is that it is from shem mah – shem / name pertains, when there is an exterior, but there is such a level of unity that there is no yesh involved. It is from the outside, but with total connection. There is an internal message and recognition of that what you are looking at, since it is from outside, but it is not a recognition that leaves you outside. You're conscious of your connection rather than being outside.


Bitul be metziut, be metziut mamash, yet with the still quiet voice. Bitul be metziut means, not that you don't exist, but that you are not conscious of your own presence. Then the essence of that presence begins to function. After there is the nullification of metziut then surfaces the real metziut. This is the transition from, “what I am” to “what Hashem has made”. An example of this is the barmitzvah boy, who after he has completed his preparation, reads the Torah, with the memory Hashem has blessed him.


The rebbe told a man to forget about remembering. This can mean stop trying to use more external faculties of memory and rely on the essence.


Koach mah – means it is a functioning faculty, yet it is mah – nothing. It is bitul be metziut.


All kochot need our conscious attention, with the exception of sight – there is no process involved in sight – you see it because it is there – absolutely effortless – no conscious sense of seeing. Because there is not involvement of the yeshus of the person, this is why it is so real.

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