"Everyone, to love will come, but like a refugee"

Aeter with R' Paltiel 11/1/09 Sunday 14 Chesvan 5770 P:PayDalet


Line starts tzorech haolam – about a third down the page.





Freeing oneself from the imprisonment of the nefesh habahamit – has certain strategies.


Pnimius hatorah is from above. It is above/internal to one's experiences. It is tal torah – an assist from above. And there are occasions when he has to focus in on etzem elokus. Aszmus does not come to expression at all in the world (as opposed to memale and sovev which can be “deduced” from the world).


Memale and sovev are active, but atzmus is elokus as it is unto itself. We have no grasp of atzmus since its metzius is not know. We see the world and we see the elokus that comes to expressin in the world. We don't even know that it exists, even though you can say, “okay, here's the ohr so there must be a source,” this is not knowing the etzem.




In truth, this is how it is in our experience. Sovev and memale comes to expression only in hashpah and atzmus and atzmus is not in the category of hashpah and gilui. Thus there is no way to come to it from the world.


In sovev there is the sense that there is a real presence beyond what we are utilizing. He sees that the real reality beyond this world is a G-dly will – not a natural structure. Inyan ha atzmus, gives the world real presence, but is not translated on worldly terms at all – there is no chitzonius to it. It is just itself. It is not begeder hashpah.


Man takes elokus from etzem and not from world. How? He is mekasher to that which is beyond world. He realizes that metzius is not the real thing. It is real in the sense that there is chitzoni, cos atzmus wants it. Chitzonius of the world is actually not worldly, but since it represents inyan ha atzmius. Metzius of world represents etzem and we focus in on not what it is, but one He that made it.


Etzem – his physical heart melts and goes out of itself.





It seems like looking for the Father has to go beyond the personal need, to really find Him. He bypasses all secondary needs and realizes he just wants to see his father. How did he go beyond all his secondary needs?


Everything else is included in wanting to see his father. Wanting everything else was a miss focus. The real reason he wanted these other things was due to father – giving him a real sense of being.


If the child falls and gets hurt. He may get up without crying. On seeing the mother, the tears come. The significance of seeing the mother is that now he senses real life and the hurt. He senses he has a loving mother and shouldn't get hurt. Same thing when the child is missing his father, and at first it was for a secondary reason (food/playmate) and he goes beyond them and just wants his father. But the secondary things were wanted because they let him know father and meaning.