Page pay dalet. In the middle of the page – line starts yetziut mitzraim.
talking about atzmus this is the root principle of chag hapesach – hopping across – jumping over. This is the revelation of atzmus ein sof. Revelation / hisgalus as it pertains to atzmus. This is not an “expression of” - this affects dilug.
Hashem will hop over the pesach – this jumping/hopping across is chag ha pesach. What does he hop over? Pesach refers to malchus - as it says “this is the gateway to havayah. Just like a gate serves for enter and exit – so too the rising of the angels up to atzilus or beyond, cleaving to the body of the king – is by means the pesach/gateway of malchus.
This applies to all influence from above – it is by means of malchus. The melachim relate to the melech by way of malchus. However the inyan of pesach/gateway is a hagbalah – limit. It is not an open space – the walls haven't been removed. The separation is in place and there is an opening/conduit by which to go through. “Mi yuchal la-alut? “– “who can rise up? (lit.)” or “mi” can rise up – mi is inyan of bitul that has the aspect or desire to rise.
This is the principle of the occupation of neshamas in gan eden – as result of revelations in torah revealed daily in gan eden – and they rise by the gateway.
But on Pesach there was a novelty – Hashem hopped over the pesach/gateway. He ignored it. He revealed his atzmus. He revealed the entire process and revealed Himself.
Thus even in the state of great darkness in mitzraim they awoke with the desire to rise up and go out. This is like a gazelle jumps.
Even so it was necessary for some kind of preparation for this revelation. Preparation is not so the revelation takes place – hachanah means you get ready to accept it – they had to accept and follow as a result of gilui ha-atzmus. This hachanah was accomplished by eating matzah. Matzah is element of submission and lowliness – no resistance. In avodah this kabalot ol malchut shamayim – also known as yirah tata. This is the gate to shamayim.
Yirah ilaa is a yirah that relates to the melech himself – yirah tata is just acceptance. This element had to be in place for the gilui to have the needed affect.
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For example: The nefesh ha behamis (N’B) is concerned about tomorrow’s breakfast. Nefesh Elokis (N’E) by learning about memale and sovev frees itself and knows that there is nothing to worry about.
If he has a personal sense of trust, he can free himself from worldly concerns and devote himself to Hashem. This free up is not freeing him up from the concerns of the N’B – it is just that he doesn’t have to worry about it since Hashem will take care.
But his being and sense of well being is dependant on provisions of one sort or another (it’s just that he has trust in Hashem that He will provide for all his needs.)
If I’m dependant on provisions it means that I have fundamental lacks as an entity (I am in need) – I cannot rely on just the fact that I’m here this second. Instead, I realize that Hashem is here and He will provide – but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m living in precarious existence.
But atzmus – you relate to a totally different level of existence. Not only an existence that has an infinite level of support – you relate to a different level of existence – it’s an infinite existence – you are thinking of Atzmus itself.
Malchus of ain sof incorporates everything without hashpa / giluii – it is a primary truth without having to be supported. It completely eliminates all negative effects because negativity is impossible. Not just that I don’t need support. Physicality doesn’t need to be recognized at all – it is the living G-d in essence. Doesn’t need memale or sovev. I only want You Yourself – the etzm Elokus – the Atzmius. It incorporates everything. This is the level where Hashem is a melech without an Am.
So what is a person thinking about when he thinks of Atzmus?
Intelligence means that you have something that strikes you – something that you relate to. When the Yidden were in Mitz for 200 years – they became totally absorbed in the tuma/impurity of the place – they could not think differently than the Egyptians were thinking. Can’t even think any other way.
An example of this in our world: you can have a perfectly intelligent person and it doesn’t even faze him to think that humans evolved from monkeys.
This is a symptom of lifelessness (just like in mitzrayim). Yitzias mitzrayim is the fact that something penetrated through this lifelessness for him to say that he’s not dead.
There is no limit to what Atzmius can effect – it wakes up even the lifeless flesh.
This doesn’t deal with a created being that will be maintained indefinitely in a G-dly world – here we are dealing with G-dliness Itself. As a result of this, His heart spills out to the living G-d. Atzmius doesn’t destroy anything that is positive – because it incorporates everything.
Hisgalus atzmus effects yitzas mitzrayim under any circumstance.
What does it mean hisgalus ha atzmus? Hisgalus here means a different thing than gilui.
Gilui usually means an expression – light of the sun tells you about the sun – expresses the source – it reveals it in a different place; a place where the source is not. The source remains out of this place but you now know about it.
Hisgalus ha atzmus is a different meaning altogether. Hisgalus of the atzmus itself. This is not any of the levels of light we speak about – this is the shemesh itself.
With respect to the light in the shemesh, light can either illuminate or eliminate darkness. But shemesh does neither. It does not recognize that darkness exists. This is the hisgalus of atzmus – you rise up to atzmus which incorporates everything without hisgalus [outside of Itself].
Limit of the mashal: sun doesn’t create world only serves the world. But atzmus does create the world – but the way it is in atzmus is on a different level. Like malchus the way it is in atzmus is a completely different level. Atzmus incorporates everything – but on a different level. Lo signov is of equal absoluteness as Anochi.
When you have dilug you don’t’ recognize the entire mitzeus of mitzrayim.
It is called yitzias mitzrayim (departure from
Yitzias mitzrayim was for the purpose of creating the Jewish people on this level.
Creation of the Jewish people as a nation is completely different that the creation of any other nation. Any other nation grew out of ancestral development in a particular area.
Jews were created as a nation by G-d directly. Fact that we were the children of Avroham, Yiz and Yaakov dissipated when we were in mitzrayim. Then Hashem took us out and gave us an identity.
The ID of the Jewish people was by G-dly declaration. The very existence is based on a G-dly declaration rather than ancestral development. This is why it is possible to be a Ger/convert. When he acquires all the conditions [of becoming a Ger], then he is declared by Hashem Himself to be Jewish.
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