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What is it in the father or in the essence, brings out the push to make something new?! How is birth rooted in the father? After the fact of the birth – there is an affinity. But what is the initiating will in the father...? Actually it is said that wanting to give birth is an initiating push to go out into the world etc...
the son is an essence. A full independent presence. Independent of his parents. And that is what the parents desire.
The child is an essence. The child has the sense that he is a full fledged presence – not a by-product. He owns a piece of the world – no less than his parents.
If he is not given a full presence, he can't find his way in life. Restriction of the person's orientation, 'you must do it this way', is an obstacle. In truth there is deep intelligence coming from the soul of each child. The first principle of parenting is to allot the child full respect – for their intelligence and being. This is a full fledged individual and on that basis he will find his way – that is natural.
Torah directs one to conquer the world. Civilize and settle it. And that this mitzvah devolves on men, not on women. This is a male reality. Why does he seek to do this? In the essence of who he is there are two types of infinity. One draws from an infinite resource, this is real infinity, and then there is 'cumulative' infinity - a huge amount. The reality that a human being has is that his presence is bigger than his presence in the world. This is malchus. Malchus it that which creates a domain.
Malchus is what creates a davar atzmi – a true presence. He can create the world. He creates a presence that has no inkling where he comes from. That is a complete presence.
Each sees in his own presence the entire truth. I don't need any substantiation. My child is the most beautiful child, just as your child is the most beautiful child. This is reality from the essence. Not from universality.
Giving birth is completely private. There should be no extraneous thought. It must come from essence. In privacy. In darkness. Nothing to do with universality.
Atik means, ancient / primal. It is the imprint of the essence. It takes essence and moves it someplace else. The inner aspect of chochmah/father is the inner aspect of atik. Normally one would tend to say that chochmah is so pure and deep that it is reflective of the pnimius of atik, but we are making a distinction by adding the word 'mamash'. That is to say in this level of chochmah there is an element of the inside of atik.
Chochmah seems unrestricted. Bina works in an orderly way. What gives chochmah substance/validity? And chochmah gives a person the strength and spirit. What is it based on? The core of chochmah is atik. Which is the oneg. The very sense of life.
Emunah means steadfast. Steady, without change. What is steadfast in a person? What doesn't vary? Anything dependent on an action cannot be steadfast. Even chochmah has an element of ratzu and shuv – back and forth. Emunah is a consciousness that is steady and is not a realization nor an action. What does not vary? Everything in the body varies. What is steady? Only the neshamah/soul itself, which is experienced in atik/oneg/emunah.
Our Rebbes were very particular about which scribe would write his tefillin. Hillel Paricher, had a deal with the scribe that he would write for him at mid month – full moon. They were sent to him via an agent, who switched with another pair. To the agent's eyes they were the same. R' Hillel could tell that they were not the same. 'I have a deal that he writes for me only when the moon is full'.
There is a difference between mamash and not – between same and similar. The deeper element of chochmah is not 'true', but 'real' – and that is the power of chochmah.
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