AyinBase / Ayin Beis with R' Paltiel Sunday 2 Mar Cheshvan 5774
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We are elaborating on the principle of 'fullness of service' (shlaymut ha-avodah). It means completeness and perfection of the service. There is cognizance only of the crown itself and not how it affects one. This can be related to only in silence/shtikah. The soul wants the crown in its purity, not in a translated form.
Tshuvah is the second manner that allows for a 'download' of the crown, which come automatically to a suitable place. It is an automatic reality. To be recognized, the first way was silence, and the second was tshuvah/return.
Real return (tshuvah) is not a quest to satisfy a certain desire. It is the realization that 'I cannot be away from this truth. I will no longer tolerate being distant'.
The inner reality is based on 'intent' rather than 'presence'. When he says, 'I do not want to be distant' it is based on the truth of Godliness. This is where tshuvah touches the same them as completeness of service (shlaymut ha-avodah).