“Beyond Personal” p:16

AyinBase / Ayin Beis with R' Paltiel Tuesday 6 Iyar 5773

 

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Page 16 (tet zayin). At end of the fourth line from top of the page – (line begins: 'bebechinat...') For text, click: Here.

Ratzon/will can be identified. Essence is not identifiable. 'This is me'. So there is a desire for essence, but the intent of essence is that there should be a shuv/return.

Essence is in a category of its own. Everything else has a 'means by which one can relate to it'. Essence is different. You cannot be yourself and relate to it. The real thing in being a guest is the host at the table. In the world this is hard to comprehend. When we think of essence we think of a rock...!

And this is what is sought by the ratzu/run. So why should there be a shuv? A coming back to myself? The answer is that the return comes after this ratzu/run.

This is because when you reach into the essence you see the essential intention is to return... so there is a state of 'I want what He wants'.

And that puts him back into return/shuv mode, but it is not 'getting back to himself' since there is no self, it is a return to the intent of the essence.

He now sees the intent and not himself! His presence is there because of the essence. He recognizes that what he knows is the intention of the essence.

In everything there is will/ratzon and oneg/pleasure and they go 'hand in hand'. So when he realizes, 'this is what He wants', there is His pleasure embedded in the intention – in His will.  And he experiences something of His pleasure...!