AyinBase / Ayin Beis with R' Paltiel Thursday 8
Iyar 5773
Page
16 (tet zayin). About 10th line from top of the page –
(line
begins: 'mikol mah...') For text, click: Here.
We are looking at how
even at the highest level of self effacement and nullification, yet
still there is inspiration. It comes not from himself, but from the
master. The servant can even add beauty to the work, because he is
inspired by the master.
This is to clarify to
us, that there is external and internal levels mind/sechel. The
inner level is what defines a human being.
And in serving God
there is a similar process – one senses, 'God wants this' and
nullifies himself to that desire, and in doing so there is a sensing
of the 'pleasure from Above'. The man gives himself over and is
totally obedient and then he feels pleasure?! Yes, this is based on
his previous ratzu/quest for Essence and his identification of the
original truth...
And then anything he
can do in connection with this Essence and Truth gives him
pleasure... How does he feel pleasure? Because he realizes that
such a truth exists. And this is the greatest possible elevation
that he can sense...
And that provides the
pleasure.
There is joy and
pleasure in his soul. There is a personal sense of this.
He experience the
pleasure from above, and from below there is pleasure in that he has
the privilege to sense this.
'I have been granted
a gift that is totally beyond me, and I have a soul that wants the
truth, but not for personal gain. This is a soul nature. My soul
goes this way. The soul wants the truth for its own sake, and it is
willing to give up everything to be connected to this truth'.
So when he has this
approach his self nullification does not nullify him, but rather
brings out the purest element from within, till he takes pleasure in
the pleasure above, since he is totally connected to it.
So now we can see how
there can be a ratzu/run after the shuv/return. This is because
there is joy and pleasure in the 'return', based on his soul and
sourced above, irrespective of the self nullification and so the
ratzu/run is reawakened again. He says, 'look how wonderful this is,
let's go further'.
The run and return
are inter-included even though in essence they are opposites.
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