AyinBase / Ayin Beis with R'
Paltiel Sunday 4 Iyar 5773
Page
15. At 9th
line from end of the page –
(line
begins:
'bebechinat...') For text, click: Here.
Picture: Batya David, Israel |
'bebechinat...') For text, click: Here.
The Rebbe is
explaining that the 'return' is based on the Godly intent... and this
is not independent of the ratzu/run towards Godliness...
When the 'run' is in
the element of 'essence' then there is rooted the true intention,
which is to be in a state of 'return'. When one reaches into the
essence then the inner intent for 'return' is discovered.
But in order to
identify with this inner intent there has to be 'putting oneself
aside'. I am not interested in 'what I am interested in', but in what
He wants... This is where the 'run/ratzu' transitions to 'return/shuv'. He
gives up his personal desire, for His will.
And there is a
personal relationship... he saw that essence is the only thing worth
pursuing and then he sees the only way of pursuit is by means of the
inner intent...
What starts the whole
process of avodah/service of God? 'In the beginning God made heaven
and earth -Genesis 1:1' Who started it? He did. It is from
above.
And any process is
actually initiated from Above. There is an element that He provides.
So how does man get
the idea of essence. It is because He made Himself known to him.
Otherwise there would be no way to go towards essence.
Essence is not
something that the sechel/mind can comprehend. So it is not the mind
that initiates the pursuit. If it is started by the mind/sechel,
then it is imaginary and it turns into klippa.
All interests begin
with a deep personal recognition that there is a Creator who makes
all.
Essence is presence
in the world. Where? The Godly intent is in the 'shuv/return'. Is
there a fundamental value in the existence of the world? And the
answer is yes, without any explanations, because that is what He
wants. In the shuv/return you recognize this.
And to recognize
essence there has to be 'putting oneself aside'. If I put myself
aside the then I just want nothing? No. If I put myself aside so
that I am able to sense the initial impetus from above that precedes
everything.
The principle of the
shuv/return is due to the yirah/awe. This is an inner 'fear' that
comes from closeness to Him.
'Stage fright' can be
based on one of two things, 'am I going to embarrass myself' and this
is insignificant, he's focused on himself. Or secondly his 'fright'
may have a different basis: he is awed by the moment and what needs
to be accomplished... he feels inadequate to the task... This is
internal. He has a personal appreciation of what he's doing.
The awe is a
statement of 'who am I to approach holiness?! I should go on a path
of greatness in a running desire for unity?!' and that sense is not
due to fear for oneself, but due to the greatness of the
mission/pursuit.
And the run towards a
grand unity, is not because 'he doesn't want to be' and not because
'he wants personal benefit'. And he takes on himself the yoke of
heaven to fulfill torah and mitzvoth – God's will here below.
This is like going
back to your source, and the source is the original intent.
Everything wants actualization – and this is not 'the will
to survive'! This is the will to be what God made him! Then
he's for real!
And then when he does
His will he realizes His presence... reality right here in the world.
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